“Don’t wanna live as an unsung melody
I’d rather listen to the silence telling me
I can’t hear you, I won’t fear you”Could Have Been Me – The Struts
Been awhile since I wrote about music here, or much of anything for that matter but more about that below
A short time ago, even though it feels like a lifetime past, I met a remarkable person.
As a hopeless romantic and life long Twin Flame Atheist, I really hate to admit it… But I cannot explain our connection as anything other than the twin flame experience. Very much to my chagrin.
Yet as soon as my brain identified this connection, after proceeding to research the topic more than I’d ever done before and selecting my favorite “yaaaaaay twin flame is magic!” and “this mindset sets you up for abuse“ resources, I sent both to my new friend. I offered no commentary and simply asked their thoughts on the topic as it related to us.
Their response? Equally skeptic, but also unable to deny the similarities.
Some time later I asked if they’d put together a playlist for me. No direction beyond “songs that remind you of me, or us, or just songs you want me to hear”. You cannot imagine my surprise and delight when nearly nine hours of music was added to my Spotify, sourced entirely from her own liked songs.
Primarily love songs, a good amount of “strong independent woman” vibe songs, a couple bops, a few memes… And this song from The Struts
I’m sure I’ve heard it before, and yet it was an unfamiliar tune in my ear. Though it caught my attention off the bat.
“Don’t wanna live as an untold story”
Big part of why I started my online and growing local presence.
“Rather go out in a blaze of glory”
While not in the traditional sense… I would rather swallow my fear and live fully and unapologetically.
“I can’t hear you, I don’t fear you.“
My freedom came when I didn’t care what others said… When I didn’t fear what they’d do.
What followed from this killer hook was effectively the anthem of how I’ve strived to live my life over the past year. To the point I could almost certainly break it down line by line and tie every word to my own experience. But I’d rather focus on the empowering magic within the chorus.
The simple acceptance of the highs and lows of life, love and pain, pride and shame, makes the experience one worth having. A slow and calculated life, lived seeking to conquer darkness by simply avoiding it, is a hollow existence.
Having lived that way too long, I would know.
“You have to have dark in order to show light, just like in life.” -Bob Ross
When I asked my new friend specifically about this song and it’s inclusion in the playlist she offered a simple response:
“It just really sounds like you. Your goals, your passion, it just feels like your song.”
Now as I said, I could break this song down verse by verse, line by line, and while writing proper lyrics or a catchy melody has always escaped me in my prior attempts. I’d like to say in another timeline this is a song that I would be writing right now in this transitory phase my life has entered.
So many illusions shattered. So many paths unlocked. So many opportunities now before me. All because finally the chains I’d been carrying for sport had been cast off, hopefully for good.
It isn’t crazy to dream of a better life, nor is it insane to fight for it. As long as you can look back on your life without regrets. Look back at the rises and falls. The achievements and failures.
Look back and never say
“It could have been me”
Stay Magickal
P.S. I’m sorry it’s been over a month since I’ve posted anything, my regular content has all but stopped and well, to be honest, things are still a hot mess. At least I’ve been keeping up with my painting and singing practice….
I was recently reminded of my motivation. Namely, the person I was when I took THAT picture back in 2021, and the person I have been every day since, and, well long story short: I need to get back to taking up space. No matter what others may say or do, my story is written by me.
I’ve been working on some new things in the background that will be coming soon, and I’m hoping to lock in a schedule for content here soon. (Tarot Blessings, New and Full Moon Updates, Music pieces like this one and 1-2 other segments being evaluated currently).
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