Z's Grimoire

Happy Wolf Moon Friends!

As noted in my last post, this will be a bit of an update, but should set the tone for the years plans.

Plans that involve being a little less love and light and a little more personal and real.

When I set out on this journey a few months ago, my plan was to be positive representation for my trans siblings. To share my stories and experiences in a unique way that might inform or inspire, while also spreading additional positive vibes through my blessings and affirmations.

Obviously, as should be clear just with what I have posted so far, I am not a solely love and light witch, I am no stranger to my shadow, yet my initial outlet for those more shadow touched tales was going to be Patreon. “Protected behind a paywall” was my mentality.

But in my solitary reflection I recognized that these tales infused with darkness were also my most potent. The ones that really tore apart the veil of mystery and shared unique experiences that have the power to promote change. To do some real good.

Recent events took exposing that vulnerability off the table completely for me, there was so much I wanted to share, so much good I thought I could do in expressing this power, yet now I was too afraid to even try. It was agony. Trying to work on a more creative endeavor did nothing. I needed to allow my third side the chance to not just scream into the void, but to scream on the record.

And with that, I’m happy to announce my future plans for ShyWitchZ.com (and other platforms), usual monthly segments are after the update.

Witchy Biz Updates

ShyWitchZ.com: There will still be a little experimentation going forward, and I’ll be working on a bit of a remodel in the coming weeks (Please let me know if you encounter any broken pages/links), but I have a general idea of the content and cadence I would like to start posting.

Weekly: Blessings and spells. These are stables of my personal practice, I am always writing new magic and I want to start sharing at least a handful of blessings and one spell or ritual a week.

Monthly: Full moon updates (what you’re reading now!), on the New Moons I will be sharing a more personal and less metaphorical tale from my life as a neurospicy late realization trans witch.

Unsure: Music!!! I’ve written about music a couple of times here already most recently a dedicated post here, and I wrote about it a few times on Patreon before that got shut down. I really enjoy writing about music, and the dedicated post seemed popular, so I think this could be a really fun piece of content for me to add to my cycle, I just haven’t decided on the schedule yet. It may just be “as inspired” for now and move to regularly scheduled later. Also unsure is my tales inspired by other crafters/small business folks. Haven’t really gotten much interest outside of friends/family, so I haven’t been able to procced with this plan. I don’t want to abandon the idea, cause I really love it, but if folks don’t want to share, I can’t really craft a tale for them.

Speaking of as inspired- Sadly affirmations have continued to escape me. I can spin a blessing to light with just about any cards, but my affirmations have all turned bitter, so these will also be going to an “as inspired” schedule. Fictional tales will also be posted as they come as I really need to start working on my longer form writing and getting some of my bigger projects rolling.

Other platforms: Ko-Fi store is undergoing a remodel, I plan to be back up by February. I plan to post reels of some of my spells/rituals on Instagram for now, though recent policy changes at Meta do have me looking at alternative platforms. Similarly my activity on threads going forward is mostly going to be updates from here and cross posts from Insta.

(So you know maybe just subscribe here and skip the extra steps?)

Last but not least, it is not live yet (well technically it is, but there’s nothing there), but I intend to start a Youtube Channel soon where I will share some of my tales in a Zed Ted Talk style hoping to encourage others to seek, claim and keep their magic in whatever form it takes.

All of that is to say, yes, changes in the world both global and locally have had me feeling scared, worried and alone recently. But I have fought too hard for too long to throw it away now: I know my power, I trust my strength and I know robbing the world of this energy would be selfish and possibly the worst decision of my life. Though there is fear of the fire, there is no longer a fear of the burn, this witch is not running away.

They didn’t burn witches, they burned women, and this woman will fight fire with fire in whatever way possible.

If this mission resonates with you, I appreciate you joining the journey above and/or donating to support (links in footer).

Igniting Intentions

Source: Ethereal Visions Tarot Luna Edition

Courage. This moon’s intention is courage. The courage it sometimes takes to get out of bed. The courage it takes to stand up to a bully. The courage to use a public restroom.

This isn’t a political statement, this is a very real reality for trans individuals that so many people do not recognize.

The bathroom debate is insane, some of the stories I’ve heard from my trans siblings shock and disgust me. The worst example remains a trans man who was forced into the women’s bathroom, was assaulted by a group of men when leaving, and then arrested by the police responding to the assault. An extreme example to be sure, but the fact that it happened, not that it could happen, it DID happen. Which means it almost certainly will again. The odds of it happening to me? Very slim, mainly because I avoid public restrooms like the plague.

But I recognize that needs to stop. Fear of what may be will doom what could be, and taking up space and making noise is the best way for me to manifest change for me and my siblings. I hope to capture some spells and blessings to inspire all in their individuals paths through life and the struggles we all face that require a little extra faith in ourselves.

Tarot Tale

This is a tale I am SOOOOOOOOOO happy to finally write. You may recall when I wrote about card readings ‘long’ ago, I addressed the popular myth that your first deck should be received as a gift. I called it bupkis, but admitted there was likely a kernel of truth.

I can now confirm that kernel.

At Christmas this year I received the Ethereal Visions Tarot Luna Edition from my mother. As noted in the the linked page above, she bought this deck with me from a vendor at one of our local fairs selling decks, crystals and other witchy needs out of his little wagon shop. “The Magic Man”. I legit don’t remember his name or the name of his business, but seeing his stand is always the highlight of my annual trip to the fair… I really need to pay more attention this year. Anyway-

Going through my new deck ritual with these cards… It was an experience unlike anything else. As I came to some of my favorite cards, the rush of energy felt when I looked upon them the first time, the intoxicating pull to begin working with them. It was quite simply the most magical gift I have ever received, and I know this deck as well as any others that may join my collection this way will always hold a special connection for me and the gift giver.

So, as I theorized, receiving a deck as a gift absolutely imbues it with extra magical energy that can form a truly magnificent bond.

Also mini review of the deck-I LOVE decks that give bonus or alternate art cards, and I love that this deck had two additions to the Major Arcana!!

Card of the Moon

Source: Ethereal Visions Tarot Luna Edition

The Tower: I wrote about The Tower quite awhile ago, though recently reshared those musings here. The Tower came up in one of my early spreads working with the Ethereal Visions deck, and the imagery really struck me.

A singular masked figure being ejected from a shining tower.

Immediately upon seeing the card I screamed “Why are they wearing a mask! Take the mask off let your ego go!!!” I was almost angry about it. Until I remembered, first The Tower falls, then YOU choose whether to take the mask off or continue to hide.

Reviewing the guidebook after my initial reflection, it highlighted both the mask of the figure and the choice. It emphasized YOU must remove the mask, you must make the change as you are the one keeping things stuck by living in an illusion. Change is hard, but only by letting go of our ego and embracing it, we unlock our true strength.

Working with the new deck this card has also come up in several impactful spreads, and well… prob helped encourage me to drop my illusions and start being truly authentic in what I post.

Closing Thoughts

Stay Magical.

That’s all I really want to say. It’s become a sign off of sorts for me and if you’d like to know the meaning it’s simply this:

I believe there is magic in the world for all. Some are lucky enough to be born with it, others must seek it and others still must fight for it as there are many who seek to erase it. When you have magic within you, you are seeking or fighting for it’s power, you are being magical. You are powerful, you are authentic and even if flawed-you are being you and you are working to always be better.

When you live this way, life becomes magical for you and those around you, and I hope to never stop inspiring all to be and stay magical.

So, until next time,

Stay Magical